Second Guessing Myself

Do you ever have those times when you second guess a decision you have made because of the ramifications that decision may have not only on yourself but on others as well?

Tonight, that's where I find myself. I took a risk by letting someone into my journey and now I wonder if it was the right thing to do. Last night I was privileged to speak with a young lady about her on struggles with God and I was able to give her some advice and encouragement based on my own struggle and the things that God has taught me thus far. That was a moment when I could see the good coming from my struggle. So, my desire is to help other people in their journeys and let them into my life to learn things from them and of their own life journeys.

So, it was with that desire that I let someone into my struggle by telling them about this blog. I did so for various reasons, but one was because I felt it necessary to let this person into my life...to see the real Laura. There is only a select few of people in my life that know about this blog, and I wanted to expand that circle just by one person. However, now I am regretting that decision. I may have put another friendship in danger by allowing this other person to have access to these posts. I would never want to do that and I had no intention of doing so. It never crossed my mind that because we have a common friend in this person that my friend who links her blog to mine might not want this other person in my life reading her blog.

As I think about what I have done it seems like a no win situation. I try to let somebody into my life, and it backfires...causing me to second guess my decision. I can't take it back now, what's done is done. I'm just worried about the ramifications of that decision. Not only am I opening myself up for more questions and more thoughts, but I wonder if I have damaged a dear friendship as well.

I'm not sure what to do next. I'm beginning to wonder if it's worth the risk to let other people in. I'm not so sure.