It's Different This Time

Tonight was our first Bible study at my home after the Christmas break. It was different this time. I found myself among people who experience the same struggles that I have/had. We talked about a common struggle we have with prayer. The difference was that instead of just listening to people talk about it, I actually participated in the discussion and shared a little bit of what my prayer life looks like now. I enjoyed being able to do that. I was cautious in what I said, but at least I participated.

Speaking of my prayer life, it's different now too. I am still finding myself being honest with God, but it still feels as if there is a barrier between God and I and I have no idea why. Yes, I have told Him that and still don't have an answer. Part of me wonders if I am being as honest with God as I need to be. I think there are probably some things that I'm not telling God but I can't put those thoughts/emotions into words. Do any of ya'll have experience with this? If so, suggestions on how I could figure out what's going on would be greatly appreciated.

I am attending a Bible study on Tuesday nights with several older ladies from our church. It's a study on Boundaries and I think it will be very helpful to not only learn from these women, but establish healthy boundaries as well. Normally, I would never have thought about going to this Bible study, but it's different this time.

So maybe things are starting to look up...maybe a little bit more together. I'm trying very hard to not worry so much, because God is always with me and He's in control. So, why should I worry?

We shall see where this all goes. it's just different this time.