Getting Life Back Together

The last couple of days have been difficult to say the least. I have made more people mad then I care to remember. I have worked out a couple of those things that I did to make them so mad. Yet, I still have some more to go. I did something today that I wish to NEVER EVER do again. It's not important what I did, just that I am so thankful God always forgives, time and time again. That's the most comforting thought for today.

I'm trying to figure out the best way to balance my time between my friends. That's a challenge in itself. I want both friends to feel equally respected and valued by me and my concern is that right now, I'm being rather one-sided. I would never want to do that.

There's just a lot going on right now, but I have decided that after two days of being grouchy, distant, frustrated, and feeling like I was floundering in the ocean, I have decided to get my life back together. God is the only one who can help me with that. I realized tonight that no one has control over what I do, say, and feel except me. They don't get that privilege. So, it's time to get my life back together and stop being such a butt-head. I'm tired of it. I want the old Laura to come back.

That was my prayer tonight. God, help me to enjoy life, enjoy my friends, and let go of some things so they do not control me. So, we shall see what happens next.