Where in the World is Smitty?

Wow...it's been a while. I have missed blogging. Life has been a little busy as usual, but I should have still found time to blog.

So what's been going on lately you ask? Well, things are pretty much the same with work and such. God has challenged me in SOOOO many ways over the last month and continues to challenge me everyday. Here are some of what I have learned:

1. God is still on the porch and I am not. This past Sunday at church, I was put in a similar situation that I was in at Children's Camp. At that time, I was asked to picture God in a chair in the same room with me and I ran out of the room. Yesterday, I was talking with the kids about questions they have for God and things they didn't understand. There was a stool next to me and I asked the kids "if God were sitting right here, what would you want to ask Him?" They had some really good questions. During their questions, I found myself very nervous with the idea of God sitting next to me. What in the world!! I thought I was past that. It was/is a huge bump in the road. But I'm trying to pick myself back up and keep going.

2. I have been reminded that friendships are hard and sometimes hurtful...not necessarily in a bad way. Over the last month I have established a great friendship and am so thankful for that. Yet, sometimes, it's SOOO hard. Other friendships have changed or have taken on a totally different dynamic and that saddens me a great deal. Yet through all of these changes I know that God will bring people into my life and is always with me, even in the midst of difficult relationships.

3. Patience, in every sense of the word. There are situations in my life where all I can do is be patient and rely on Him. I guess that means to trust Him. Easier said than done most days. I just don't understand what He is up to. There's so much going on in my head and in my life that all I can do is keep my head above water one day at a time.

I am concerned too that my blog has become a place where I must filter everything I say and write because of all the people who read here. It's taking way to much effort to post something that doesn't offend people even if it's how I'm feeling or not. I wonder if I should just stop blogging. I do enjoy the comments from others, so I'm not quite sure.

Oh my...what a crazy month it's been.