I've done some hard things

Over the last three weeks I have:

-Ended a friendship and dealt with all that entails. The other person was hurt and angry, but I think I handled it well.

-Decided that another relationship is worth saving. I have gone too long with a chip on my shoulder and am taking the steps needed to do what I can to mend the friendship. It's not easy, but I am willing to give it 110%. Everyday I forgive and everyday I ask God to help me. It will be a journey, but one step at a time.

- Found myself falling into the trap of "beating myself up" but talked to God about it and I woke up this morning with a new outlook on things. Last night was pretty low, but after I spent some time talking to my Father, all was good again. That's the first time in a long time that I haven't fallen in the downward spiral of beating myself up again and again.

- I am trying something new at work. We are moving our Family Worship event to Saturday nights, twice a semester. We have some really cool things planned, it will be neat to see it all come together. And for the first time in a long time, I feel like I have a handle on something in my ministry. For a long time, I have felt like I have just been doing good to keep my head above water. Now, I feel like I can swim and get things done.

So, it's been an interesting journey these last three weeks. The biggest thing I've been reminded of the last month is that I can only be in control of myself and that one day I will have to answer to God for my actions and words...not for anyone else's. I need to quit worrying so much about other people and do what I feel is right. God is God and I am not. It's really cool to be able to trust God and know that He is in control.